Bleeeeuurrrgghhh

This year thw only christmas thing i have is the radio times. Normally i’d have bled sainos dry of nuts, Roses, crackers and booze. Just doesnt feel like Christmas.

My favourite James song (I think!)

Lullaby

Since your mother cast her spell
Every kiss has left a bruise
You’ve been reading too much meaning from existence
Now your head is used and sore
And the forecast is for more
Memories falling, like falling rain
Falling rain

Every view they hold on you’s
A piano, out of tune
You’re an angel
You’re a demon
You’re just human
Now your world has turned to trash
Broken windows on the past
Take that child and teach him senseless
Damage the dream, damage the dream
I feel nothing, I feel nothing at all
I feel nothing at all

In this gloomy, haunted place
All the feelings are of shame
All the windows have been broken by the children
So the wind screams up the stairs
Slams the doors and rattles chairs
I wish we weren’t conceived in violence
Damage the dream, damage the dream
The magic is broken
The house is in ruins
Your memory’s one-sided
The side that you’re choosing feels nothing
Feels nothing at all
We feel nothing at all

so… self-indulgent weightloss tally time.

Since August 13 I have lost:

2.5 stone (that is 35lbs people)

7 inches off waist and 6 inches off hips.

just wish I felt more like a new woman than an old woman!

When you go

Would you have the guts to say

I don’t love you like I loved you

yesterday

only walked 1 mile today, but it was very icy. 6 miles yesterday though!

One step at a time
One foot in front of the other

Sometimes it takes a second to sink in
That your life is never gonna be the same again
Breathe in, breathe out, it’ll be okay
Breathe in, they say the pain will fade away

One step at a time
One foot in front of the other
I’m gonna get through this one way or another

Sometimes it takes a second to sink in
That your life is never gonna be the same again
Breathe in, breathe out, it’ll be okay
Breathe in, they say the pain will fade away

I’ll never take this life for granted

I’m living it for two
One step at a time
One foot in front of the other

big dinner, half a glass of wine and pills. sleep guaranteed?? if not I’m sueing

physio says I can crank up the walking again now as Sunday’s walk hasn’t hurt my leg. lost 6lbs in less than 2 weeks. that seems quite a lot considering I’ve done hardly any exercise